Why?

Journeling can be very beneficial and detrimental. The key to keeping a journal is to put more positive things down than negative. That would make everybody happy but would it accomplish what needs to be accomplished? No. I am starting this blog to give insight into who I am to myself. For years I never knew who I was, who I acted like, or who I looked like. This may only be understood by other individuals who have been adopted. So I plan to journal from that perspective; one in which I have a personal connection.
I also hope to give my biological siblings a glimpse into my life. The life they did not share with me due to circumstances beyond their control. The life I was not a part of due to the actions of my biological mother and father. Do I blame them for adopting me to someone else? How can I, I do not know the circumstances that caused them to make what must have been a very difficult decision seem more appealing to them than it would have been to keep me?
This blog is not a place for me to place blame. It is a place for me to bare my soul to myself so I may find out who I really am; and to choose to be a polka dot dog or a brown pony. More on that later.